“I want to be free …''It was the statement I’m afraid to hear from him. It sounds awful, just like a lamentation around. It took for him a second to say those words yet for me it seemed an hour where every syllabication is being indulged in my ear through my veins then to my heart like a needle pricking it. I can still remember that day. I thought that conversation will refresh the week long less communication of our twelve months affair. But I was so wrong … totally wrong. That talk marked the end in our relationship.
It was my eighteenth birthday. I never expected that on that day, I will not only open another chapter in my life but I will go through it with someone.
This person has been my friend since the summer of that year. We usually beep each other and sometimes he came by our house just to sit down and talk about life and its surprises. He was just an ordinary friend whom I love to talk with, laugh with and hang-out with. He had a girlfriend and I was trying to move on from a heart break. I haven’t noticed that he is filling up the emptiness inside. The friendship I offered to him vanished. It was replaced with something else. He was an ordinary person in my life that suddenly became special. I don’t know where to put my self in that situation that time for I know that he was owned by somebody else. However, I’m trying to run away from him to avoid being the talk of the town but he is doing stuffs that give me reason to stay and keep in touch.
Until that day, my day where gone are the days of lollipops and dolls … it was the day he opened up his feelings. I never wish for that moment to come yet it sound so good. I decided to give my trust to him on that day. It was a mistake but I never regret with what I have done. I received rumors that he and his ex girlfriend were still together. I calmed myself and confront him about this. He made immediate action and officially broke up with that girl. He cut whatever connection they had. I knew it was a hard thing for him but he have to decide. With that, I would assure him that he will not regret of having me as part of his life. I learned to love him more as days passed by.
One day, while I was checking my social networks, I unintentionally dropped to his account. I read a message that torn my heart into shattered pieces … he was going out with this girl coming from another school. That moment, it seemed as if I was carrying the biggest burden in my back. I would rather suffer from a physical pain than the pain my heart is feeling right now …
Reader’s note:
The heart of a young lady speaks as she reveals the pain she felt from her love … This note was found by her friend as she checked the files saved by this young lady.
It was an unfinished note … four hours after typing this, her friend found her lying on the floor, breathless … pale … dead.
